t r u t h l i e s h e r e
half a lie, half exageration.dreamlog
I was in my bedroom, there was a 3 seat sofa, i was on the left, and 2 friends filled the other spots (a blond one and a oriental one). We were sexually aroused, but not exactly excited – also, im not sure about what we were talking to make us feel sexy like that. The oriental one suggested we could masturbate together, i agreed, but the blond one didnt. He stood up and left while the oriental one complained to me about how lame he was.
then, i woke up.
beautiful things

“Those who find ugly meanings in beautiful things are corrupt without being charming. This is a fault. Those who find beautiful meanings in beautiful things are the cultivated. For these there is hope. They are the elect to whom beautiful things mean only Beauty”.
(from the Preface to ‘The Picture of Dorian Gray’ by Oscar Wilde)
lucky friends
Sometimes i think about those very popular people and how many friends they have. and then i get to think about it a little bit more, and i realize that friendship has to be both ways. you have to be as dependable as your friend, otherwhise its something else, but not friendship. and its not like a human being can take care of this many people. i realized today thats why our friends change while our life goes, so that we can take care of as many people as possible in our short lifespam. some friends come, some friends have to go. not that anybody can replace anybody, but you’ve gotta make room for new things in life, and considering you’ve only got the same ammount of energy to invest in things, no matter how many things you manage, some losses are natural.
i wish i could have taken better care of some people, i wish some people could have taken better care of me.
dreamlog
im at home. not this apartment i live now. im home.
im at the balcony, watching the street, its all empty, like a holiday. i see four people walking together, side by side. There is a young woman, a mature men and a kid, a boy. i dont remember who’s the 4th element. the group scares me by the way they walk. there is something about the four people that makes me feel uneasy. I remember i spoke something with a neighbour, but i dont recall what. then, i see the man walking up the stairs (i used to live on the 1st floor). he walks directly towards me, determined. i am absurdly scared as he passes me and goes inside the apartment. i lock him inside, because then i know he wont be able to do anything bad – but then i remember my grandpa is there, helpless.
then i wake up.
dependable
Its when you know its gonna be allright. its when a phonecall is enough to make you feel better. in control. better. calm. Its when just the sound of your voice makes it go away, and you dont even need to be there to caress. Its when you’re the first though. its when your number is the first thing that comes to mind when you need support. backup. support.
its when you know its love (:
(brother, i love you so very much and i hope your finger stops hurting!)
dreamlog
I was going to some sort of slum (watched district 9 yesterday, might be related) alone, in my car. I dont remember how i was dressed, but i guess i was quite presentable. I dove a little bit but the streets narrowed so i had to walk. i remember i was going there for a particular reason, but i cant really remember why – maybe pick up something. on my way, i pass through a street party, with the street closed and a lot of people around. there was music and drinks also. then i stumble upon a couple of girls i graduated with (wich i dont really recall, they were like random people) and they insist they had to introduce me to someone. I try to get away, thinking it was a girl they would try to hook me up with, but then comes along a handsome guy, and introduces himself to me (no names were given, but he was smiling). Then he grabs my hand and in the middle of a handshake, he pulls me closer to give some sort of “nice 2 meet ya” kiss. i retreat, and he makes a really disguished face and goes away. i remain guilty about being so rude and go find him, when i do, i hold him and apologize. he kisses me on the neck and i say how i like the scent of his perfume.
then i wake up.
good eye
Of all the means of expression, photography is the only one that fixes a precise moment in time. We play with subjects that disappear; and when they`re gone, it`s impossible to bring them back to life. We can`t alter our subject afterward…. Writers can reflect before they put words on paper…. As photographers, we don`t have the luxury of this reflective time….We can`t redo our shoot once we`re back at the hotel. Our job consists of observing reality with help of our camera (which serves as a kind of sketchbook), of fixing reality in a moment, but not manipulating it, neither during the shoot nor in the darkroom later on. These types of manipulation are always noticed by anyone with a good eye.
Henri Cartier-Bresson,
American Photo,
September/October 1997, page: 76
(found @ /gagah’s fotolog)
e.t., phone, home!
on reality
If one experience a situation as real, no matter if it is or not, its consequences are going to be real aswell.





